N&N 9: Our Eruptions

~15 minutes. Sorry it's up a day late.... :P (and with no topic lists...)

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Bad Nick

No N&N today. I've used up my buffer between packing and traveling*, and while I could have today, we're shipping my sis off to college so it was family day.

* So; left Troy for good. Packing was last week, and this week was Seattle for a job interview and traveling. Good news: I got job! More Good News: I have to pick between Seattle and LA! Blog News: Tomorrow will be me thinking through all this, with the info I've got. What do I want? What do I need? Where can I get these things? But tonight is family night and 5:00 AM drives to airport. The worst time, other than rush hours - waaay to early for reasonable, and just too late for all-nighter.

N&N 8: Unconscious Virtues

About ~10 minutes.

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Topics:
Nietzsche:
Our Known and Unknown Virtues

Nick:
Bad Models of Other People
Midlife Crisis
Who is it that directs the change in yourself?


Q: What are my virtues and faults as you, the listener/readers, see?

N&N - Something for the Laborious

It recorded kinda quiet. ~10 minutes

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Topics:

Nietzsche:

That the history of love, avarice, etc, is unrecorded and unexamined.

That we assume these things are constant throughout history.

Nick:

Assumptions about my present and future based upon a poorly understood past.

The feel of your own mind, and how it has changed over time.

Should you keep a diary?

Question for the readers: What exactly is he referencing with the phrase "cyclopic structures"?

Future Topic: Secrets, A Closer Examining of My Past

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Listen, then read:

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So, I haven't been doing the dairy thingy, but I have been trying to keep track of my emotional state throughout the day and what events surround it. I'm doing Bad Science right now because I'm not paying enough attention to data and too much attention to the theory, but so far I've held pretty true to the overall pattern that being around people = good, and not being around people = bad. And/or, mornings = bad and evenings = good, but, all my mornings are lonely and my evening's really aren't.

I do want to try the micro dairy thing, but I'll have to figure out my means before it can really catch. Although I do know that the data I'll be paying attention to are major activities and corresponding / apparently caused emotional states.

Thanks for listening!

-N

N&N - Loss of Dignity

This is actually the first one I recorded. It's a short passage.

~10 min.

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Topics:

Nietzsche:

Meditation & Multitasking

Nick:

Thinking in your Idle / Waiting time.

[Humanist Scifi Short Story on Badly Realized Wishes] (I'll find the title for this... more on the todo list...)

Haste vs Speed

Future Topic Note:

I use the phrase "hurry up and get to the end", and it's reminding me of some thinking I've got that I'm not sure how to phrase succinctly without giving it away badly. Well, I think I can say; it's with regards to hopes versus expectations, and how I approach love and relationships.

Er..

I realized that I said something pretty goddamn arrogant in one of these, about Kate and I and where we both are on the road to "adult hood", whatever that is. If I remember it correctly, it was a pretty staggeringly arrogant thing to say. I'm gonna find some time to hunt it down, (not sure whether to hope it's in the posted ones or not...), and... Well, some form of redaction is in order, but I'm not certain enough of what I said, the context, or why I said it to really say what kind of redaction, and what goes along side (like, apologies). But I had to come and mention it, or I'd be brooding about it all night. Anyway. Yeah. Sometimes I'm an idiot?

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Found it. N&N 2, at about 8 minutes. The synopsis bit is: "I think that's part of what this single period is going to do for her - bump her over the cusp into womanhood. "

So. Doesn't bother me anymore; it may be arrogant, to think that I know when that transition to "adult hood" occurs, but I can't shake the feeling that it's true. I guess the right way to phrase it mostly just drops the words that carry those heavy connotations; it's not "on the cusp of woman hood" (or, since I was making the same judgement on myself, "man hood"), it's "on the cusp of the next you." The next milestone in personal growth.

But even then, who am I to pass judgement on another like that? Well; answer's pretty simple; I'm a somebody. It's an opinion, like thinking a soup is to salty or a stew to sweet.

The actual arrogance comes from thinking that I know where she should be going - and to a lesser extent, that I know where I should be going - but I also can't shake the feeling that her personality is changing to a new perspective. Then again, as this break up has shown me, I didn't really get to know her all that well, so maybe I just didn't see this part.

Anyway. I guess the take away for me is that I need to watch out more when I think I know what other people need, and look for ways I might be wrong.

The take-away for you is that people who say they know what you should do aren't necessarily right.

N&N 5: Unconditional Duties

Okay, edited (not that there's much editing that I do..). Also, sorry about the fan in the background for the first part. It was reaaally hot that day.

~20 min

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Topics:

Nietzsche:

Philosophies of Morality

Categorical Morality

Nick:

Ubermensch

Acting for Yourself vs Another

Three Worlds Collide

Future Possible Topics:

Finding What You Look For / Bias in your Sampling

Diversity of Existence and Death / My Post-Singularity Humanity

Shoulds (and expectations, etc, etc...)